Monday, September 6, 2010
A tattoo instead
While I was recovering from my first loss and sometimes since then I have thought of getting a tattoo to honor the memory of the babies I have lost. At first I was contemplating a tiny footprint, but their is so much unknown about my losses and I wouldn't want to explain to anyone the meaning behind it if it happened to be in a place that was visible. After my current loss I thought about it even more, but I didn't like the angel stuff and I wasn't sold on the footprints. Then I was watching a movie called sunshine cleaning, and one of the characters had simple bird tattoos. Something about them struck me and I'm now obsessed with the idea of having a similar bird to represent each of my babies. I have been scouring the internet for the last week trying to figure out where I would put them and how I would have them look. I keep coming back to a picture of a dandelion blowing in the wind with birds flying through the dandelion seeds. I can't pinpoint the meaning I want to convey, but I am continuously drawn to it. I think I will try to meet with my tattoo artist in the next couple weeks. Originally my plan was something small, but I can't figure out how it could be done well looking smaller. I am kind of excited for the first time in a while for something. For some reason I am embarrassed to tell my husband about the tattoo I want and why. A friend of mine saw me browsing the tattoos and sounded a little condescending when she asked me why I would get that as a tattoo and what meaning does it hold. She knows of my losses, but I don't want to put it into words and thinking about saying it out loud makes me feel embarrassed and foolish, but I don't care. I think I have myself completely sold on the idea and the only way to relieve my obsession is to go through with it.
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